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Monday, June 14, 2010

We Love fruits Salad!

This evening we had our own fruits salad. Mummy cuts some green and red apples, and some rock melon, after which with the fruit salad dressings.

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Even though the dressing tasted a little bit sour, but both Issac and Annabelle love it!

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Everything they love would be fine for Mummy.

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Saturday, June 12, 2010

Malacca Day Trip

Sister Agatha’s family together with Mother-in-law had came to Kuala Lumpur for mid-term school holiday.

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We went to Malacca today as bringing them to visit the places of interests.

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The weather is so hot today. We have been visiting the famous historical sites nearby the river and the Jonker street. The weather is so hot that finally we sat on the trishaw, and all the kids were so happy and excited.

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It was a tiring day but the day our family have fun, later in the evening we drove back to Kuala Lumpur. As we had visited the St. Paul Church, A Farmosa, and the beautiful Hotel Puri.

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Hotel Puri is one of the few hotels in Malacca which still preserve the old or colonial buildings. They do have quite a number of collections of Baba & Nyonya in their hotel.

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It is quite a enjoyable day for the kids!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Issac Loves Sausage!

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This little young man love sausage so much! I know sausage is not so much good to eat much, sometimes it is just some snacks for them while watching TV.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Mum In Memory…

I read Ika’s blog today. One of it really strikes my heart at the start as I thought it was her something like love story, eventually when I finished it, she is writing about Mum. And, the memories she had with her.

Out of four of us, I am the one who is not really close to Mum, because after my STPM, I straight away came to Kuala Lumpur and working already. Even, my STPM results too, is Mum who took it from my High School. Now, think back, I would never know what is her feelings that time. My results really no good. Out of 5 subjects, only Pengajian Am A, Mathematics E, and the rest subject Physics, Chemistry were R (half paper pass only) and Additional Mathematics is F which is Fail. Probably that point of time, she really feel sad… What kind of daughter am I huh?

Now, my turn becoming a Mother for 2 kids. It is really never an easy task to take on , and at that moments they are 4 of us. She is really a great Mum! One will never know how your mum feels at least when you become one. This is true and fact.

After reading Ika’s blog, really miss her very much, and really regret that I have know nothing about her at all all these while…

還記得嗎? – By Ika Too

月圓人團員的中秋剛過,
我突然想起了你……
或許該說,從沒忘記,
只是不願再次觸碰胸口的痛而已。
原本想在當天靜靜的完成想要說的話。
結果躲不過懶惰的使喚,還是偷懶去了。
xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
曾經,我們是多麽的親密,
最喜歡把我的小手,牽著你溫暖的手,
過馬路也好……撒嬌也好……
就是喜歡感覺你的溫度。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
雖然,我們偶爾也會爭吵,
很快的,我們又會嘻嘻哈哈地……
好像,沒事兒一樣
我又成功的讓你開心了。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
青春期的我,
問了你一句話:假如,我拍拖了,你會怎樣?
你只是笑著說:那你的功課一定完蛋了~~
簡單的一句話,
卻是你對我的一種信任和窩心的話。
至今我都還沒有交往的對象。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
那一年,我們又激烈的爭吵了
你哭了,我也哭了。
我懊惱自己弄哭了我心愛的人,
雖然,那時候的我,
並不懂得如何愛惜我愛的人……
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
你不舒服~~是我們爭吵的那一次之後
我很害怕
暗地裏哭了,
我突然很害怕我會失去你
真的很害怕……很害怕……
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
我沒辦法控制我的淚腺
從那一刻起
我就不停的哭
我只能夠讓自己的淚干了
才能面對你說話。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
虛弱的你還擔心說
可能要花很多的費用呢~~
不懂事的我,不知費用有多大
我卻告訴你說別擔心,
大人們會搞定的。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
當我望著你半清醒的模樣
說不出話的時候,
我的心被撕裂了~~
撕裂,心痛的感覺
我在當下都嘗盡了。
我只丟下一句‘振作點’就奔出門外
我崩潰了……
因為,我沒有辦法看著你痛苦的模樣
雖然,我應該說更多更多的話激勵你
不管你聽見或沒
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
陪你走過最後一段艱難的時間
也是我最煎熬難過的一天
因為,我沒有放棄過等待奇迹的心
也正如負面思想沒有抛下我一樣~~(矛盾)
直到心電圖顯示沒有了心跳,一切靜止了
你的手,沒有了溫度,
我才徹底的被撕裂了……
xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx
當我以為我就快要忘了一切,
所有的畫面又浮現在我面前。
我並沒有忘記
一切的一切,都是我不想碰觸的傷口
難以抹煞的記憶。
如果,人類的記憶
如同電腦一樣,只需點擊一下就能清除掉,
很幹淨利落,不是嗎?
只可惜,我不是電腦。
所以,我沒辦法丟掉所有有關你的記憶
如同我沒能忘記如何呼吸。

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

1st Term Assessment Progress Report 31 May 2010

Here are the remarks that teachers give to both Issac and Annabelle.

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Mummy actually not so worried about their academic results, but what Mummy more concerned is about how can both their potential been bring out and develop.

It must be a fun thing when both of them grow up and see their own toddler development!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Turning Point…35?

Myself Ika & Ipeng 1 Today, Belle is getting better. If there is no unforeseen circumstances, probably Mummy will start work on coming Thursday.

Actually, these few days is quite relaxed that I can do anything I want. It is really rest days for Mummy but my mind would not calm down when I sit down and starting to think about my future.

I am 35 this year. According to the palm reading which I did few years ago, this year will mark a change in my life…but I do not have any idea what will it be. Is it relating to the relationship? Or my own health? Or family? Or my career? Anything it is, I pray so that I can take it in calm and peace…

I do like this photo, so natural and three of us were so crazy…

Monday, May 31, 2010

Belle Fall Sick…Coxsackie Virus

Belle fall sick again…this time downed with Coxsackie Virus – another word of Hand, Foot and Mouth (HFM) Disease. Last Thursday, 28 May 2010, the day before Wesak Day, Mummy had brought Annabelle to Dr. Liew’s Clinic due to she already had fever for 3 days. Before that, mummy had brought her to Dr. Choy, still the fever wouldn’t come down even had the medication. On Saturday, 30 May 2010 itself, she started hasn’t eaten and keep on grumbling.

This morning, went to Dr. Liew again, confirmed that Belle got the HFM. According to him, there is a lot of blisters in her mouth, her gums also becomes reddish and easily bleeding, smelly already. Dr. Liew gave Belle an Antibiotic and the Cataflam 1,5% to relief her soreness, and advised that Belle stay at home for 5 days at least to reduce the viral transmissions to other kids. So, Mummy has to take leave for 1 week to take care of her.

Mummy purposely sneak out to Guardian while Belle was taking her nap to buy the Vidaylin Minibears Gummies with Garden Vegetables and Glocolin, cost Mummy around RM60.00, and not forgetting the Consultation Fee is RM130.00.

Today, Belle had half a bowl of Bakuteh which Mummy cooked, a lot of Ribena and Vidaylin Minibears Gummies. The one which made me most happy is she is taking solid food – fried rice, even 3 tablespoon but is enough for me already. Hope she will recover soon…

While Mummy fetched Issac, mummy keep on remind him regular washing his hands to prevent he is the next one whom get infected. But, I think most of all: I am the one who should practice the strict hygienic precautions such as hand washing after every diaper changing or touching infected skin. Attempts to regularly clean items that children contact, especially toys, pacifiers, and any items they may place in their mouths, may also reduce viral transmission.

Really have to learn how to become a MOTHER…