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Showing posts with label Inspirations. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Inspirations. Show all posts

Thursday, May 28, 2020

Is that a Prompting?

I was finding some resources on the Church Gospel Media, preparation for Issac’s and Annabelle’s testimony videos. I came across an invitation from President Nelson.

On New Year’s Day 1/1/2020, President Russell M. Nelson shared the following message on social media:

“When I spoke during last October’s general conference, I designated 2020 as a bicentennial period commemorating 200 years since God the Father and His Beloved Son, Jesus Christ, appeared to Joseph Smith in a vision. That singular event in human history initiated the Restoration of the Lord’s gospel—an unfolding Restoration that continues today. How blessed we are to live in the light of that vision. With that vision came new understanding about the nature of God our Father and His Son, Jesus Christ.

God loves all of His children and has a vision for each of us. Just as He listened to Joseph’s prayer in 1820, He listens to you and yearns to speak with you through the Spirit. Heavenly Father wants you. We want you. This is going to be an important year. We invite you to be a major part in sharing the message of the ongoing Restoration of the Savior’s gospel. We will share more about this soon, but you can start today by acting on the invitations I extended to you at last general conference to immerse yourself in the glorious light of the Restoration.

What does that look like? You may wish to begin your preparation by reading afresh Joseph Smith’s account of the First Vision as recorded in the Pearl of Great Price. Or ponder important questions such as “How would my life be different if my knowledge gained from the Book of Mormon were suddenly taken away?” or “How have the events that followed the First Vision made a difference for me and my loved ones?”

Select your own questions. Design your own plan. Act on any of these invitations to prepare yourself for sharing the important messages of the ongoing Restoration. As you seek Jesus Christ in these efforts, God will prepare you to receive further light. It is your personal preparation that will help April’s general conference become for you not only memorable but unforgettable. The time to act is now. This is a hinge point in the history of the Church, and your part is vital.

I testify that Jesus Christ lives. He leads this Church today. God is trusting us, all of us, to play an important role in the Restoration of His gospel.”

Our Kuala Lumpur District Relief Society President, Sister Min Lian did asked every branch Relief Society Presidents of the Kuala Lumpur District to post at their own branch Relief Society group chat to invite sisters in the branch to share their testimony of restored gospel in their own group chat.

It was as so much things to do and I just posted on our Puchong Relief Society group chat and did not put much attentions into it. There was not much response from the sisters either in the group chat.

After I did some editing on some videos of sisters’ testimonies for the branch Zoom open house, I kind of an idea that if we could share the testimonies on Puchong Branch Facebook page. Then, I came to this invitation that President Nelson shared early of the year.

I am thinking of, if, if we could ask sisters to participate in sharing their testimony on the restored gospel in video form. Then, we can edit and add some music and post it to the Puchong Branch Facebook page, may be a video a week.

May be we can make it more specific, pray for some questions such as the questions posted by President Nelson, and more… then assign to the sisters… then they could email their testimony videos to us.

Half of year 2020 had passed, we still have another 2nd half year of 2020… left about 30+ weeks… my heart and mind is thinking of at least we do what our Prophet asked us to do.

I do not know why my mind had been thinking about this lately during I was editing the Zoom open house video for Relief Society. And this thought keep on banging on my mind that I have to, and I need to do this.

Is that a prompting from the Spirit?

Wednesday, July 10, 2019

I Want You to be Happy

I think I want to record this down. I was not in a very good mood last night. I felt sadness surrounds me which made me not comfortable. I do not know why I have the doubts that I have.

I just prayed to Heavenly Father before I slept. I asked Him, “What wilt Thou have me to do?”

There is a thought came into my mind…

I can hear it clearly…

“I want you to be happy.”

At that moment, my heart was pumping fast and I hold on all the tears in my eyes and my throat. I know that this was from Him.

How to make myself happy again? Doing the things I like to do? I even forgot what and how does it feel to doing the things that I love to do, the things I used to do. Well… May be I have to be Alive again… Able to feel again… Able to create again… Able to be myself again…

Happy, Be Happy, and Mark Anthony: "I want you
 to be happy
 because you deserve it;
 I want you to be happy,
 because it makes me happy
 to see you,
 the way you were meant to be."
 - Mark Anthony
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Friday, August 24, 2012

A Tiny Picture that Touch Me…

I went for the Prudential Training whole day today for catching up my CPD hours. The training topic I had chosen is “The Fundamental of Trust and Will”. Just to choose some topic, that I can get out the benefit out of it, at the same time fulfilling the 30 CPD hours.

There is a “cube”, and every each side of the “cube” contained a hidden small piece of paper. The first paper I picked it up and opened up. I saw it at a glance, and it touch me, my heart…

It reminds me that, I have to keep on remember that I deposited my whole love, true love to the children. It is been a difficult period for 3 of us, each of our emotions and temper are no good at all. As a mother, I am the one who is be here to protect and love them.

It is a bitter when seeing the tiny picture below, shown are the “whole piece” of the family – a father, a mother, a son, a daughter, a baby and together with a puppy.

Here, we are 3 of us, walking down the road, deposit we have for each other to our memory banks…

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Friday, May 11, 2012

Pick Up My Live Writer Again…

It’s been almost 2 weeks that I try my very best not to write any more. It is really hurt when I started to write and have to reveal my pains, and the scar in the heart. It is something like using a sharp knife, keep on digging my unhealed wound in my heart.

Till I saw Esiang’s post on his Facebook’s wall today. It is actually more on a letter which a young guy wrote to himself, after a 2 years backpacking life abroad, far away from his homeland, living alone, working and experienced a different life.

The first thing he wrote to himself, is keep on writing his diary or a journal. We will forgot someday…the things that we are writing now, at the very moment now, it is really hard and difficult, especially when you are going thru the hard and tough time, with the emotions.

Someday, in the near future, you will be forgotten all those things which happened to you, and your sanity will make it clearer for you. But, all those that you had been went thru is your life. And, your journal will keep you ‘awake’ that, do not be forgetful, as all the moments you went thru, had make up a very ‘unique’ you, and a mirror which reflect you…

That’s is why I pick up my Live Writer again…or more appropriate is my Life Writer…

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写给24岁自己的一封信

 

两年前的我:

 

你好吗?我很好。你现在在幹嘛啊?机票买好了,新电脑准备好了,在更新iTunes裏你的最爱?在学习调好新电话的GPS?还是在努力的找你人生中第一张Couchsurfing沙发?

 

离开时,总有一点不捨得的。大学经济课唯一学到的,是机会成本。任何决定,必有得有失。纽西兰一年的打工度假,最重要的,不是你去过什麽地方,是给了你完整一年的时间做你自己想做,试你自己想试的事。这是只属於你的一年,暂时放下家庭的期许,朋友的比较,事业的方向,失败的压抑,隻身飞到一个全新的国度。在那裡,没有人认识你,没有人知道你的过去,你,可以做一个全新的自己。试一下不同的性格,试一下不同的生活方式,试一下你很想接触的经验,试一下不敢做的事情,试一下隨便认识朋友,试一下踏出你的安全网。这一年,你将开始一字一句的写下你人生一书很重要的一章。2010你的年,一个失败与成长的故事。

 

我还记得,你坐上飞机那一刻的感觉。“真的假的?幹嘛我会在这裡?我疯了吗?”。你没有疯,至少那一刻还没有 :P 这一年裏,你会做出让你意想不到,却难忘一生的事。路,不能说是平平坦坦,但一路走下去,你总会找到一个一个新的方向。

 

不用担心。你只是开始走一条跟大部份人不一样的路。到今天,我也不知道这是对还是错。毕竟,没有前人的脚步,每步前行,都是你自己发现的新道路。

 

谢谢你。这一年,你勇敢的做了这个很重要的决定。

 

走过了这一年多的路,从纽西兰打工度假毕业,请让我在这裡为未来一年提供一些意见:

 

1. 写日记

日复日记录自己的每一刻,真的很辛苦,特別是你心情低落时还要一字一句写下你最糟糕的经历。对你来说,这样花时间重温你的噩梦,肯定不是一件享受的事情。记得吗,你是你人生那本书的作者。今天的低落,只是让故事更好看的一个小结,每个扣人心弦的故事总得有高低起伏。这一年的结局,一直由你那支笔决定。日记,不是写给今天的你。若干年后,你会慢慢变得理性,忘记年轻时的热情,对事情的悸动。今天的你,是未来的你最好的老师。你有责任提醒他们,不要忘记生活的意义,不要忘记朋友的重要,不要忘记要不断学习,不要忘记真诚待人,不要忘记要对工作的热情,不要忘记困难总会过去,不要忘记做你引以为豪的那个自己。

 

2. 每天都拍照

虽说是打工度假,但不是每天都有新鲜有趣的事情。要你拿著单眼500D每天东奔西跑好像又破坏了你浪子不羈的形像 :P 我知道确实有很多时候都没办法把相机带在身上。好好运用你手机的拍照功能吧,一些无聊透顶的物件,点餐的菜谱,工作的排班表,生产线上的生活,厨房的杯杯碟碟,以至你超级市场最爱逛的那一个角落,有空的话,都把它们拍下来。将开你的眼睛,保持永远的好奇心,让你电脑裏每天都有特別的moment。其实,你最爱的照片,往往不是那些令人惊歎的天然美景,而是一张张勾起你生活点滴的小照片。

 

3. 认识更多朋友

一年三百六十五天,每天多交一个朋友,一年后你会成功的把你面书的朋友列大大扩张 :P 假设男女比例平均,你会认识182个女生。根据统计学,正態分佈中总有一两%的突出者,折算最少有两三个高品质的女生合你心意…说笑啦!我觉得,既然你只有一年的时间,也只有一年的体验,那更应该认识多一点朋友。听他们的故事,瞭解他们的经验和生活,多看一点別人写的书,好好学习,对你有百利而无一害。其中一些朋友,他们会成为你未来书中最重要的角色,在你走下去时提供强大的后盾,支持你继续追梦。

 

4. 不以貌取人

纽西兰的自我中心,中国的没教养,台湾的英文很烂,香港的现实势利,马来西亚的说话大声,日本的自成一角,南美的不负责任,没有的。不要以貌取人,不要把你家裏看人的刻板印象带到背包旅行。背包和打工度假给你的,是一个瞭解其他国家文化的好机会。多聆听別人的想法,不强把自己的文化价值观直接套在別人身上。互相尊重彼此的差异,接受新的观点,你会学习到更多。咖啡厅洗碗的阿姨,工厂的拖车司机,餐厅的侍应,他们可以教你的,不比大学裡的教授少。

 

5. 放下自己

打工度假是一个让你放下自己的好机会。一个人身在外地,没有人知道你的过去,没有你强逼你活在他们的期许下。你是你自己,你只爲你自己负责。大部份的打工度假都是穷孩子,手裡拿著差不多的钱(呃,可能你的一千纽币是真的比较少…),站在同一个起跑点上。你会完完整整放下自己,一切归零,没有贫富之差,学历也再不管用,去找什麽工作,过什麽生活,是你的决定。也许,你会怀疑放弃你既有利益的价值,但放下以后,没有了包袱,你才会往前走的更快。

 

6. 活在一个没有不可能的世界

记得,你出发前问过朋友的意见,十居其九都不支持你一年的打工度假,觉得你是时候定下来发展事业。一年过后,我不敢想像失去这一年对你是多大的损失。记得,你尝试,有机会失败。但你不试,永远没有机会成功。每个人在走不一样的路,你可以选择隨著人家走路,过著低风险的一生。或者是尝试自己探索,准备可能的失败,慢慢走一条属於你自己的道路。就一年时间,活在一个没有不可能的世界吧!你有可能失败,有可能跌到,也有可能给自己重新改变的机会。

 

7. 找朋友倾诉

你会遭到挫折,你会遇到不公平的事,你会对你自己很失望,你会感到孤独。我保证,这只是过程中的一部份。多点跟朋友倾诉,跟朋友分享你的想法。他们不一定可以教你做什麽决定,但他们会给你一个拥抱,给你煮一顿饭,给你一块巧克力,给你陪伴。一年过后,你会忘了爲什麽那天这么生气,这么失望,但你会记得每一个朋友送你的小窝心。

 

8. 对人真诚

有天你变成背包的学长,去主动帮助一些刚入学的学弟妹吧!你曾经也有白痴过,也有菜鸟过的时候。我相信的公平,不是拒绝帮一些没有准备,没有爬文的人。我相信的公平,是尽力用你的知识,经验去分享给刚拿起背包的朋友。再告诉他们,那天到他们有能力,也要去帮助新来的朋友。你的经验资讯,是从前辈身上拿到,学到的,这不是你独有的財产。记得真诚帮助有需要的人,把从人家身上学到的经验传承下去,这才是真正的公平。

 

9. 影响身边的人去想多一点,做多一点

拿到打工度假签证是踏出你安全网的第一步。你要想多一点,做多一点,尽力把握每个机会做到最好。你可以让人知道,打工度假不只是在农场工厂工作,打工度假不只是赚钱旅行玩一年,打工度假不是让人逃避现实的避难所。将你梦想的一年实现出来,做到最好,让人知道,这一年的可能性远多於他们心中所想,只要他们勇敢去梦想,勇敢去把梦想实现。

 

10. 做你人生中的作者

你是作者,你决定这一年故事的发展,结局。用笔,用行动写出一个你最喜欢的主角,一个让你自己欣赏,让你自己佩服,让你自己想做的主角。主角是一个拥有强大梦想力,遇见困难不会退缩,不会放弃,一步一步实现梦想的人。只要你真心想要完成一件事,全宇宙的力量都会帮你达成梦想,这是真的。希望从今天开始,你亲手拿起笔,写你自己的故事,做你人生中的作者,让更多人因为你的年,你的故事去做他们自己人生中的作者。

 

我期待你的故事,期待你笔下的主角,让我再一次看到二十四岁的自己想做怎么样的一个人。

 

你问我啊,有后悔两年前的决定吗?没有,真的没有。我可以说,这一年裏一些经验,感受,是我再花上一辈子都值得换回来的。不过,我就先不告诉你那些惊喜是什麽了 我相信,只要你每天聆听自己的心声,保持正面的態度,愿意接受新的挑战,你能做到的,绝对比你想像中的多很多。

 

我很骄傲,有你做了我二十四岁那一年的作者。谢谢你

 

二零一二年五月三日

两年后的你

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Steve Jobs Commencement Address, Stanford University, 2005

This is a very inspiring speech that I had ever come across. It mentioned all about basically everything: life, destiny, circles of life, death, who you are and being who you really want to be…

His life is short…56 years. Steve Jobs had made huge change towards human living by inventing the computer, and much more…He lived his life to the fullest!!!

Am I ?

Stanford Report, June 14, 2005

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

This is a prepared text of the Commencement address delivered by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much