I Want You to be Happy

I think I want to record this down. I was not in a very good mood last night. I felt sadness surrounds me which made me not comfortable. I do not know why I have the doubts that I have.

I just prayed to Heavenly Father before I slept. I asked Him, “What wilt Thou have me to do?”

There is a thought came into my mind…

I can hear it clearly…

“I want you to be happy.”

At that moment, my heart was pumping fast and I hold on all the tears in my eyes and my throat. I know that this was from Him.

How to make myself happy again? Doing the things I like to do? I even forgot what and how does it feel to doing the things that I love to do, the things I used to do. Well… May be I have to be Alive again… Able to feel again… Able to create again… Able to be myself again…