Issac Loves Sausage!

This little young man love sausage so much! I know sausage is not so much good to eat much, sometimes it is just some snacks for them while watching TV.

Mum In Memory…

I read Ika’s blog today. One of it really strikes my heart at the start as I thought it was her something like love story, eventually when I finished it, she is writing about Mum. And, the memories she had with her.

Out of four of us, I am the one who is not really close to Mum, because after my STPM, I straight away came to Kuala Lumpur and working already. Even, my STPM results too, is Mum who took it from my High School. Now, think back, I would never know what is her feelings that time. My results really no good. Out of 5 subjects, only Pengajian Am A, Mathematics E, and the rest subject Physics, Chemistry were R (half paper pass only) and Additional Mathematics is F which is Fail. Probably that point of time, she really feel sad… What kind of daughter am I huh?

Now, my turn becoming a Mother for 2 kids. It is really never an easy task to take on , and at that moments they are 4 of us. She is really a great Mum! One will never know how your mum feels at least when you become one. This is true and fact.

After reading Ika’s blog, really miss her very much, and really regret that I have know nothing about her at all all these while…

還記得嗎？ – By Ika Too

月圓人團員的中秋剛過，
我突然想起了你……
或許該說，從沒忘記，
只是不願再次觸碰胸口的痛而已。
原本想在當天靜靜的完成想要說的話。
結果躲不過懶惰的使喚，還是偷懶去了。
xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
曾經，我們是多麽的親密，
最喜歡把我的小手，牽著你溫暖的手，
過馬路也好……撒嬌也好……
就是喜歡感覺你的溫度。
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
雖然，我們偶爾也會爭吵，
很快的，我們又會嘻嘻哈哈地……
好像，沒事兒一樣
我又成功的讓你開心了。
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
青春期的我，
問了你一句話：假如，我拍拖了，你會怎樣？
你只是笑著說：那你的功課一定完蛋了~~
簡單的一句話，
卻是你對我的一種信任和窩心的話。
至今我都還沒有交往的對象。
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
那一年，我們又激烈的爭吵了
你哭了，我也哭了。
我懊惱自己弄哭了我心愛的人，
雖然，那時候的我，
並不懂得如何愛惜我愛的人……
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
你不舒服~~是我們爭吵的那一次之後
我很害怕
暗地裏哭了，
我突然很害怕我會失去你
真的很害怕……很害怕……
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
我沒辦法控制我的淚腺
從那一刻起
我就不停的哭
我只能夠讓自己的淚干了
才能面對你說話。
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
虛弱的你還擔心說
可能要花很多的費用呢~~
不懂事的我，不知費用有多大
我卻告訴你說別擔心，
大人們會搞定的。
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
當我望著你半清醒的模樣
說不出話的時候，
我的心被撕裂了~~
撕裂，心痛的感覺
我在當下都嘗盡了。
我只丟下一句‘振作點’就奔出門外
我崩潰了……
因為，我沒有辦法看著你痛苦的模樣
雖然，我應該說更多更多的話激勵你
不管你聽見或沒
嘿~~你還記得嗎？
陪你走過最後一段艱難的時間
也是我最煎熬難過的一天
因為，我沒有放棄過等待奇迹的心
也正如負面思想沒有抛下我一樣~~（矛盾）
直到心電圖顯示沒有了心跳，一切靜止了
你的手，沒有了溫度，
我才徹底的被撕裂了……
xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx
當我以為我就快要忘了一切，
所有的畫面又浮現在我面前。
我並沒有忘記
一切的一切，都是我不想碰觸的傷口
難以抹煞的記憶。
如果，人類的記憶
如同電腦一樣，只需點擊一下就能清除掉，
很幹淨利落，不是嗎？
只可惜，我不是電腦。
所以，我沒辦法丟掉所有有關你的記憶
如同我沒能忘記如何呼吸。

1st Term Assessment Progress Report 31 May 2010

Here are the remarks that teachers give to both Issac and Annabelle.

Mummy actually not so worried about their academic results, but what Mummy more concerned is about how can both their potential been bring out and develop.

It must be a fun thing when both of them grow up and see their own toddler development!

Turning Point…35?

Today, Belle is getting better. If there is no unforeseen circumstances, probably Mummy will start work on coming Thursday.

Actually, these few days is quite relaxed that I can do anything I want. It is really rest days for Mummy but my mind would not calm down when I sit down and starting to think about my future.

I am 35 this year. According to the palm reading which I did few years ago, this year will mark a change in my life…but I do not have any idea what will it be. Is it relating to the relationship? Or my own health? Or family? Or my career? Anything it is, I pray so that I can take it in calm and peace…

I do like this photo, so natural and three of us were so crazy…

Belle Fall Sick…Coxsackie Virus

Belle fall sick again…this time downed with Coxsackie Virus – another word of Hand, Foot and Mouth (HFM) Disease. Last Thursday, 28 May 2010, the day before Wesak Day, Mummy had brought Annabelle to Dr. Liew’s Clinic due to she already had fever for 3 days. Before that, mummy had brought her to Dr. Choy, still the fever wouldn’t come down even had the medication. On Saturday, 30 May 2010 itself, she started hasn’t eaten and keep on grumbling.

This morning, went to Dr. Liew again, confirmed that Belle got the HFM. According to him, there is a lot of blisters in her mouth, her gums also becomes reddish and easily bleeding, smelly already. Dr. Liew gave Belle an Antibiotic and the Cataflam 1,5% to relief her soreness, and advised that Belle stay at home for 5 days at least to reduce the viral transmissions to other kids. So, Mummy has to take leave for 1 week to take care of her.

Mummy purposely sneak out to Guardian while Belle was taking her nap to buy the Vidaylin Minibears Gummies with Garden Vegetables and Glocolin, cost Mummy around RM60.00, and not forgetting the Consultation Fee is RM130.00.

Today, Belle had half a bowl of Bakuteh which Mummy cooked, a lot of Ribena and Vidaylin Minibears Gummies. The one which made me most happy is she is taking solid food – fried rice, even 3 tablespoon but is enough for me already. Hope she will recover soon…

While Mummy fetched Issac, mummy keep on remind him regular washing his hands to prevent he is the next one whom get infected. But, I think most of all: I am the one who should practice the strict hygienic precautions such as hand washing after every diaper changing or touching infected skin. Attempts to regularly clean items that children contact, especially toys, pacifiers, and any items they may place in their mouths, may also reduce viral transmission.

Really have to learn how to become a MOTHER…

Mummy’s Olympus FE-4030

Mummy initially wants to bring Issac and Annabelle to National Science Centre, unfortunately both of you sick. Issac is still ok, but Mummy suspected Belle not well yet. Tomorrow Mummy will have to bring Belle to consult Dr. Liew again.

 

Initially want to have Mummy’s Olympus FE-4030 do an ‘opening ceremony’ today at the National Science Centre. This camera is a trade-in offer for Mummy’s previous Olympus MJU-700 series – the existing LCD screen spoilt, needed RM306 for change, instead Mummy change for new about RM480 + 4GB SD card RM40. It comes in 4 colours: Grey, Pink, Blue and White. The available colours only Grey which is the one Mummy had, Pink and Blue which both colours aren’t Mummy favourite colours. Mummy bought it last week.

 

All these latest camera series do not have all weather proof feature, but the water proof and sock proof version of cameras are in another series - U tough.

 

Mummy is thinking of having a simple operated camera for writing blogs and take babies pictures only, thus this simple should be enough. After all, Mummy would not be using the camera during outdoor raining days, and most of all, Mummy will not going for overseas, mostly four seasons countries for time being, no need to hunt for an advance featured camera.

Here is Mummy’s new toy… and bringing together is new experiences and blogs…

一人一半才有伴

一人一半才有伴

文／王偉忠

陶子重義氣，她要我做什麼，我就做什 麼。她要我談一談婚姻感情，就談吧！反正我也到了開口說話會帶點道理，但年輕人聽不進去的年齡。 我跟太太戀愛八年結婚，婚後十七年，總共認識了二十五年。這麼長的時間日夜相伴，身旁偶爾沒有她，感覺很爽，倘若此後一輩子沒有她，萬萬不可。

像前一陣子看到一則意見調查，問年輕女孩，家人、父母、孩子、老公與事業，如果硬要抉擇，會先放棄哪個？ 女孩選了選，先放棄了事業，然後家人、父母，剩下老公與孩子難以抉擇，最後選擇放棄孩子、留下老公，理由是家人、父母、孩子最終都會離開身邊，但老公會是 終身伴侶。很殘酷、但也很真實。

中國字的寓意深遠，「伴」，就是一人一半，湊在一起才完整。 現今許多人適婚卻不婚，老人家看了奇怪，過去從沒發生過類似狀況。這現象代表五、六十年來沒有戰亂、年輕人長大過程中享有家庭溫暖與親情支援，因此認為單 身也能過得很好，不論敗犬或是單身貴族，不覺得非要個伴，是歷史上首度可以一個人過日子的平安歲月。

衰老未至，沒有歲月的壓力，等年齡到了，開始覺得孤獨、害怕孤獨，想找個人分享，還是需要個伴。 若要進入婚姻，套一句不負責任的老生常談，要靠緣份，除了緣份以及感性的感覺，還要理性的選擇。婚姻確實需要理性，如果女兒論及婚嫁，我一定要求要看看對方家庭，什麼樣的家庭會養出什麼樣的孩子，當然，也有破碎家庭的孩子更努力維繫自己的幸福家庭，但一定要仔細觀察。

而另一個老生常談就是婚姻需要兩個人有相同的價值觀，但這不是說「我喜歡的你一定要喜歡」，而是「我不討厭你喜歡的」，就可以了，兩人可妥協，可退讓，願 意試著接觸自己本來討厭的，看看是否真那麼不能接受，有這樣願意妥協的心情，比較容易維繫感情。

而婚姻與愛情最大的不同，在於願不願 意改變。願意為了對方改變自己，是真愛，從頭到尾都不想改變自己，這段感情充其量只是對方愛你。 戀愛是短暫的交會後很想在一起而開始，很想閃的結束。開始時乾柴烈火，講究原汁原味，眼前的他什麼都好，是全天下最酷的、最美的，不需要改，但等到愛情疲 了，才發現這人酷到不近人情、美得過於臭美、連刺青的位置不對，趕緊推給個性不合閃人。因此戀愛講究的是如何好聚好散 進入婚姻，當然還是會有許多衝突，學習重點是「相處的藝術」。

男生該學的第一課就是上廁所必須掀馬桶蓋，一開始改變很不習慣，後來融入身體，像吃飯喝水一樣自然。但最近老婆說不只要掀蓋子，尿完還希望我拿! 衛生紙擦擦馬桶周圍留下來的「遺跡」，按照過去的脾氣，一定就「老子愛….」，但現在的我會聽太太的意見，因為「愛」字裡有個心，不是光用腦想著該送什麼禮物給她，要用心。太太也改變不少，她不喜歡戶外活動，婚前知道我愛潛水、跟著背起十幾公斤重的空氣瓶跳進海底求生，這麼愛美的她怕晒黑、塗防晒油塗滿臉，一回頭、嚇一跳， 怎麼來了個歌仔戲花旦跟我一起玩。

婚後我又想潛水，她就說「不必了」，理由是家裡有孩子，不宜從事太危險的活動。 以前一個人在台北發展，要自己照顧自己，還要爭名奪利，不自私很難在短時間之內成就自己。結婚之後學著喊太太的媽媽「媽！」，有食物，不能先放進自己嘴巴，要顧著妻小先吃。我開始懂得心疼與珍惜，因為太太很好，捨不得讓她不舒服、捨不得讓她傷心，這些捨不得讓我自然學會了讓、學會了愛，也自然的改變自己，從自私變成大方。

婚姻的路是每天類似的風景，同樣的過程、淡淡的，要相處得好，真得靠慧根，所以找對象不能光想找個腿長奶大的辣妹，或是像金城武的帥哥，要找個讓自己想起 他來心裡甜甜的，回頭一看，那人就在燈火闌珊處，這就是最好的對象。

而所謂另一半，也不是一開始就契合，是在修正中不斷的磨合，你多一?
I我少一點，像拼圖一樣拼在一起，才能一起過一輩子。 當然，歲月無情，人生最終還是分離。

像我媽媽十六歲嫁給爸爸，相守相愛了一輩子，爸爸十多年前過世之後，媽媽真像少了一半，常凝望遠方，像爸爸就在天的那一邊，令人感傷。但人生如果少了婚姻、少了隨之而來的酸甜苦辣生老病死，少了孩子延續家的價值與感情，真會少掉很多滋味。

A great article by 王偉忠 - 台灣知名電視節目製作人 discussed about marriage life and the tolerance that a husband and wife needed to go through.

This article made Mummy thinks of the quarel with Daddy on the past Mother’s Day. Daddy was angry at Mummy that Mummy spend a lot of times surfing online, instead of do the ironing for Issac and Belle’s school uniform. Mummy woke up at around 9.30am, and it was a Sunday. The perks was Mummy mistakenly made Daddy’s back pain, then Daddy just packed up his clothes and bags, kissed both of you before he went out from home.

“ I suggest to call your father n clear our problem ok I quite sick of repeating my same request again n again pls arrange i mean it tq. -  Sender: C Alvin Yu +0164118320” After that night around 9.00pm, Mummy received this sms from Daddy. Feel really sad, what a Mother’s Day…

Actually, from the bottom from my heart, I will never think or dream that your Daddy will celebrate this day with me…to him, I am not a really great Mom for him, even a good wife not to say great. But Mummy had tried mummy’s best to take care both of you…even sacrifice the things that mummy wanted to do – Pru Biz. Sometimes, I really think… who am I live for?