Ask of God

Ever since I had chose and decided to do the things I supposed to do, I can feel the strange atmosphere around whenever we are together.

Finally today on the Sabbath, it turned out to be the odd or rather a kind of threatening conversation at least for me. I remained silence all the time.

I was tired of want to maintain and salvage this little of what I have… I would leave it to the Lord and prepare to accept whatever that would come to my plate. And, if it is not meant to be salvaged in the Lord’s eyes, and it is ok with me.

I kept wondering what did I miss out or not learned the previous lesson? That till today I still walk on almost the same path and consequences again? I admit that I am not perfect being.

I wondered why?

Thus, the beginning of last week, I was thinking a lot about Joseph Smith’s First Vision, as I first watched the video in the Primary Sharing time.

And, so co-incidentally, this topic is one of the lessons of the Faith In God Program which I prepared for both Issac and Annabelle.

It was all started with a little of faith, then grew up to something great. He was a 14 years old boy when he received his first vision. And, it was all started by the verse of the Bible:

“If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall given him.”

James 1:5

I was thinking and pondered. How can I become like him asking in faith?

At first, I was reading the Joseph Smith – History 1:1-20. Then I was listening to the video clips for few times.

As I wanted to get to know more about that chapter, I was drawn to the Seminary guides which I can learn more of the whole event of the First Vision and the Restored Gospel itself.

After which, I have an impression, that I should study the Doctrine and Covenants. I am not sure is it comes from the Spirit… I do have a desire to know more about the Restored Gospel and how I can learn from young Joseph Smith.

I am in my age of early 40s, and still looking for how can I draw more to the Lord, and learn more how or what He wants me to do, even I am in the midst of my trials.

I can feel Him was there with me, guided me little by little how to go through everyday… It is a blessing and privilege to learn how to walk with His Spirit everyday in my life…