A Routine Sunday

Today Daddy Alvin have gone out very early in the morning, he went to Kuala Terengganu to attend his colleague’s wedding. Brother Andrew attended too with his whole family.

Daddy Alvin sent his travel photo together with his colleague in van through Whats App to us.

This morning, after doing the household chores, I was driving to the nearest Mc Donald’s at Taipan USJ for our breakfast.

Both of them really being good kids and obedient, they played at the playground all by themselves and both really took care of each other.

We went to the Guardian Pharmacy to buy some groceries then only came back to home. I took the photos of both in the car on our way home.

At night, three of us went to the Popular Bookstore at Summit USJ Mall. I bought some Primary 1 workbooks for Issac’s home revision.

I saw some cute cow and milk stickers, the cow remind me of Alvin as he is born in the year of Ox in our Lunar Calendar of Zodiac. It was almost 9.00pm when we reached home.

Daddy was back after both Issac and Annabelle were going to bed. His mood must be not so good, because I can see from his face, he must be still thinking of Nicole…

He took a bath and then went into the next small room to make phone call, he was in the room for quite some time, nearly an hour if I am not mistaken.

My heart was pain and feel so not ease at all. As he said, there is no more love towards me… All these can be seen ever since we came back from Kuching…

I do feel sad and heartache… Why every time he comes back, he would take something from me… Just like the same feeling when I feel that during at Harvey Norman time, asking me to use my credit facilities on his newly bought furniture for his new house…

A ‘Him’ Dairy…

After sending off both Issac and Annabelle for their art class at Jane Yap Atelier, I was hanging around at Citta Mall.

While waiting for them, I went to the Times Bookstores and have a look. Accidentally, I found something interest me – a colourful spiral bound note book. It have a beautiful cover with black colour base.

I still remember I did buy some note books just like this for Issac and Annabelle at Popular Bookstores sometime ago. Now both of them using it as their sketch book.

Suddenly I have a thought: that I want to use it to write down all my feelings and thoughts about Alvin. I feel a little bit strange for myself having that kind of feelings…

Both of us have been officially divorced, and I am no longer his wife, but still why I still have this kind of thoughts towards him? As he had told and mentioned to me so many times already, that he no longer have any love or feeling towards me…

I feel sad, really sad and upset to myself, but may be, may be by writing down all those things, matters or emotions which I feel about him, it may help me to let go of him…

I really do not know what is there install in front of me in the future? Anyhow, I will have to go through it, as my life still go on, hopefully there is a rainbow at the end of the corner of the sky…

His heart is no longer belong to me…

I was pretty indecisive between 2 designs of the note book and finally decide to chose a black cover with a little bit of colour on it.

I guess it is more suitable to describe our relationship like the book cover -  may be we can be better friends instead of husband and wife. A more comfortable way for us to get along as we watch both our children grow up…

Floorphase Projects Chinese New Year 19 Feb 2013

Today is our company Floorphase Projects 1st day of coming back to work after the long Chinese New Year Holidays. We all waited for both Yeap and Jessie came in and opened the door.

It was Joey’s idea that we should have a group photos of our company. All of the other women are really women, which I can hardly follow, because they are so women!

Hopefully this is a good year ahead for the company!!! Huat ar!!!

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Final Full Stop!

Finally, today is the day that he packed up his clothing and walked off from home. In the morning he attended the morning service to the Setapak Lutheran Church which is a Catholic Church.

He was so angry and asked me, “Why did you go and tell our home stories to the nearby salon hair stylish? even the smallest details things also she know about it?”

I did not expect he went to the salon for a hair cut, and then the hair stylist had told him everything. The woman is not trustable! And I would never to go that salon any more.

He told me that he do not want to give me false hope, it is because both of us cannot be together again anymore. He told me off that, it shown to the other people that I am that type of person when I am the one go and tell to other persons about our own family matters.

I was so pissed off, and told him straight to the face that, “ You want me to treat you how? When you were with Joe, do you ever think that I am your wife? When you would only think of me? When you need me that time? For money? For my credit card? Or what? For using my name to loan something? I know it everything? Ever since your name have been cleared out from the bankcruptcy, you just want to kick me aside? How you want to treat me now? Or how I supposed to treat you after all the things you have done to me?”

He said, “Did I ever make your name blacklisted? Whoever tell these things to you?”

Eventually because of both Issac and Annabelle were here, we stopped our arguements there. He just packed his stuffs and left the home. Before he left, he told me that, he would wants to bring both children going back to Kuching for Chinese New Year. I just told him that, I will bring kids back to Kuching and because Mama also old age already.

Finally, today just officially put a full stop to our trial periods of 2 months!

Shah Alam Wet World Water Park 27 Jan 2013

This is the 2nd time I came together with the children, 1st time for Daddy to come with us. This time around I guess is more fun than previously we came only 3 of us. Daddy can accompany Issac to play more on the rides, whereby last time I cannot play with Issac more, as I was afraid of Annabelle would be alone at the same time.

We arrived early around 9.30am, but the Water Park not yet open, thus we went to the playground near the park and play for awhile. There were some other children there too. At sharp 10.00am, then we went back to the Water Park and start to queue for our turns to enter the park.

This time around, all of us can enjoy in the Thunder River, Pirates Cove, Bermuda Triangle, Storm Rider, Whirlwind Escape, Super Hurricane, Tornado Rush, Kiddy Typhoon Lagoon. Daddy able to accompany Issac played the Super Hurricane which is the latest slide at Wet World Water Park Shah Alam. Super Hurricane would provide the most memorable experience definitely.

In addition, two other newly introduced are Thunder River and the Caribbean Rider. With just sitting on the floats, you will forge ahead without stopping. Two of this, I did try together with Annabelle. It was really fun!

All day wading and playing in the water can increase a person’s appetite. Wet World Cafe is providing light meals, snacks and hot and cold drinks which can refresh the body.

We did order some fried meehon, fried rice, fried chicken, nuggets together with the drinks as well for our craving of food after the play.

I can really see Daddy was happy for being with kids. Both Issac and Annabelle too, were happy too as it was more happy than previously we came.

After the Wet World, we were thinking of going to the Aquarium next to it but only found out that the Aquarium not more there, as the existing place where it located had became an abandoned area and construction were leaving behind there.

Immediately, my thought was like, “Things do change, don’t they?”

Daddy just sent us back home and he left afterwards back to his place at Kuala Lumpur. I know he will miss the children too…

Surely, I know that both of the children were having a fun and happy day. That is the only thing that matter to me…

 

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The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference.

~ Robert Frost

30 Dec 2012

2012年 ~ 走過一些起伏、一些選擇、一些困頓、一些阻礙、一些掙扎、一些突破、一些失落、一些學習、一些再成長....

2012年沒有白過，但卻不代表這一年走過的一切都已揭示出意義，畢竟，生命總是持續的在教導、在醞釀、在發酵，而今年所遇到的人事物，也許在某一天，才能整個看到更全面的意義，與更被洞察出的關鍵意涵。