Regretted Decision Turns Out Right?

I am still a little bit stressed out because of last night argument, but it is a little bit better as this morning meeting with SSDU was OK and can be comprehend after the commercial part of the tender evaluation part that I involved had been concluded around 12 noon.

After which I was asked to join their consolidation of Technical part and Commercial part together which might be end at 3.00pm. I asked to excuse myself earlier around 1.45pm. while their SSDU internal project committee were discussing on some of the procedures which they need to do.

I need to go to the workshop to change the car tyres as asked by Alvin last night. The initial plan was to fetch both children from school then just go to the shop nearby our house.

I felt as I still a little bit time, so I drove to the mechanic that did the spray paint for my car last year during I was involved in the motorbike accident where the motorcyclist knocked my car bumper and rear tyre. I just need an estimates about how much it will cost and I need to arrange the monies and how am I going to get it done by this month as instructed by Alvin.

I went to TT Auto Workshop Ah Tee there. After Ah Tee saw my car, then he noticed that my rear tyre already worn out and he did check the price from his friend who opened the tyre shop. The Continental Tyre is about RM160+ for the size of my car tyres and he advised me to change only the both tyres at the back as I do not want to change all 4 tyres because there is 1 still only 1 year and 2 months old only.

Thus I called Alvin and asked about his opinion. He was in the tender interview at 3.00pm. So decided to just do it at Ah Tee’s workshop. After I fetched both Issac and Annabelle, it was already 4.00pm when I reached Ah Tee’s workshop. So I asked the children to stay in his workshop office and he drove the car to his friend’s place to change the tyres. According to him, it would only took 1.5 hour for that.

We were waited at Bandar Sunway from 4.00pm to 5.30pm, and Alvin was calling to chase us back to home and asking why it took so long to do it. He started to feel annoy on me as it was already started to rain and we know that it will going to be very jam later in the evening.

After I asked Ah Tee if the car is ready, then he called his friend and about 6.00pm he went off to take the car. I was wondering why it take him so long to get the car back, then only I know that he drove the car to his friend’s shop at Sungai Way. No wonder it took him so long!

I was kind of regretted about my decision to change the tyres at Ah Tee’s workshop, it would not be this late if I change it near our house there, which is just outside our home. Both kids would have at home already; I could send them back home first then only drive out to change the tyres; We could have dinner already near the shops there while waiting for the car to be ready; the most important of all, Alvin would not have worried and raised his voice to me because of this late.

I was thinking and wondering, why am I ended up here and change the tyres here? The clock is ticking, the sky is getting darker, the rain seems still and I yet to see any sign of my car back to the workshop. My mind was already stressed out and blanked. All kind of thoughts came into my mind. Why? Why? Why?

After what had happened last night, I thought everything was going to be better after the whole day of calmness and serene, and this is how I am going to end up for the day? Another day of quarrels again from Alvin? Oh gosh!

I just quietly prayed to the Lord that if this is the things that He wants me to go through, I just take it and go through it. I totally surrender! I do not want to think it anymore, be it the outcome will become worse or even Alvin and I can just split up, it is OK with me!

Finally Ah Tee drove back the car with the new tyres, and I asked children to go to the car while he was finalizing the cost. It was RM419.00. Immediately I WhatsApp Alvin about the cost and he transferred the amount to Ah Tee’s account.

It was about 7.00pm that we started to drive back home, and it was about 7.30pm when we reached home. Surprisingly Alvin asked us to go up to the home to take a bath first when I asked Issac to call him that we were at the downstairs if he wants to go out dinner.

We went to the Medan Selera Puchong Prima which is near our home and had our dinner there. Everything seems OK and normal with the presence of the children. I am grateful for the day end as it is. At least no quarrels.

I feel as Alvin unable to sleep well throughout the night and there is something on his mind that bothering him. And I do not know what is it. I just feel as I do not know the storm that lays underneath the calmness of the sea when will blow up someday?

I am grateful to the Lord that He was there and I know that I was so so worried at Ah Tee’s workshop, and I feel as He was there listening and watching me having my fears all around me and I know that He knows, that I know that I need to go through it.

I do not know why it is so difficult for me to hear Him and I am still trying my very best to listen to Him to guide me. But one thing for sure is that I know that He love me and my family, and that is enough for me at that moment.