There are always promptings I guess from the Lord, during I am seeking and cried to the Lord for comfort.
This week really started with a foolish thing that I had done - accidentally knocked Alvin’s car. And this accident had started the sparks of series of angers and quarrels from him.
I was thinking about personal revelation and how I have felt like I have so many times cried to the Lord and I cannot hear anything at all. It is like in this accident of mine, I was still in the shock or blur that do not understand why this happened? And, why do I acted so carelessly? Why do the Lord did not warn me or helped me prevent this from happened?
As today I read a similar blog at the Church website, as the author said, “So many of us struggle with a similar problem. We ask the Lord for help, yet the heavens feel close to us. It is like getting the answer, “Good luck, kid, but you are on your own this time!”
“It’s especially hard when we are told we can “hear Him” and receive revelation like Joseph Smith, who asked Heavenly Father a simple question and got such an incredible answer! The silence can cause us to feel isolated, lonely, and abandoned by our Heavenly Father, even when we have faith that He does want to guide us in some way.”
At that moment I was immediately feels as this is the message that Father in Heaven wants to tell me and want me to know what is in His mind that He wants me to know.
The author was mentioning about a talk that late Elder Richard G. Scott of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles (1928 – 2015) said about recognise the answers from the Lord.
And, it was exactly the same General Conference talk that I was studying and pondering for the whole last week, before this accident happened.
While I was reading this point, this bring back to my memories and remind myself again that Father in Heaven has never abandoned me! I remembered that I had this doubt before and I wrote down in my journal, and now the same trial of faith happened again but in different scenario and background.
What if He has never abandoned me? What if I am the one who are a stranger to Him? What if I am the one who do not hear His voice or recognize His gentle Spirit calling me by my name?
No wonder the first thought that came into my mind after I had expressed my fears and worries to Him that night, was to “Hear Him”. I was listening to President Russell M. Nelson’s General Conference talk of the same title – “Hear Him” repeatedly over and over again for the past few days.
And today after I had read this blog, helped me to know that the Lord is always there beside me even before the trials or making my big mistakes. He was already there to prepare myself to help me search for the answers that I would need. I am the one whom did not realized it. It reminds me of the same thing that happened to me last 2 years back.
I just surrendered and asked Heavenly Father if all these were the things that He thinks is best for me to experience and I will just take it. It was exactly what I felt yesterday when I was at the workshop.
I am grateful that I can always rely on my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ to be there when I just want to cry or express out whatever I feel to Them, and the most importantly I can always feel the warmth, peace and comfort in my heart and it get me through.
I know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love me, I know that They live and always watching over me!
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