Start A New…

I had been crying in the office for the whole morning, it was due to Issac’s studies in the school. For the past 1 year, our divorce had been affected him badly, especially in his study.

Issac is lack of confidence of little boy. Due to Alvin and I, it had been affected him negatively – physically and psychologically.

I know that, I am the one whom affect him directly, because he can feel my emotional and disappointments. This will influenced him in some of the ways.

It is up to me, that how should I mould him and growing up in the unhappy environments or in a happy and healthy environments?

For this year, I should focus on the followings:

1. I must be happy! Because if I am happy, my children would be happy too!
2. I must be self-discipline! I have to make a change to my own self, and change my old bad habits, because I set an example to my children.
3. I want to grow up together with Issac and Annabelle! I would walk down the path, no matter how difficult and hard the road ahead me! Study with them together everyday, spend some time with them.
4. I want to set a goal – buy a bigger house than what we stay now! Let both children to know this goal and we can achieve it together.
5. Start doing my Prudential insurance and achieve 60,000TPC.

I really do not want to think other matters anymore. Today is so blue.

I do not know why I have to go through this with Alvin again and again, after our divorce this whole year?

May be God wants me to walk the same path again, to learn something which I did not learn or unlearn again earlier on, in order to become a more “perfect” me?