A Moody Monday…

After I sent the kids, I came back home and sat down.

Actual fact, there are so many things I thinking back…

The blue Proton Satria car using my name to get a hire purchase loan, then using by another woman;

All the personal loan using my name too, just because he was unable to get the loan due to his bankruptcy issues, finally he is freed from that, whereby I am still stuck in all the loans applicant and repayment person, he is paying it still;

All these while, I want a better living environment for both kids, he was keeping mentioned that because I am not hygiene enough to take care the house;

All the not coming back because he need to rush the projects things, are all lies, he got another rented apartment with another woman outside, paying her phone bills, paying the rent, the internet, everything and everything, etc.

Just once in a while, buy me a new laptop, a new watch, a new hand phone, a new handbag, a new purse, and I was so excited and happy about it, so appreciate…

And, all these 7 years of marriage, what a hard time he gave me? How he treats another woman? I think I am just a biological mother to his 2 children, for him.

Annabelle is almost 4 1/2 years old now. He is maintaining his relationship with another woman for almost 5 1/2 years. And, according to him, he just settled.

Then, here comes a new one.

Why? Why?

I had been living with a man that I totally do not know at all, am I?

And, where is the man I knew when I was getting marry?

Gosh, what will the children think of their Daddy is a person like that?

Especially Issac, he is very adore his Daddy, and Daddy is a super hero Daddy for him.

I prayed that he will never find this out, because he is such a very sensitive boy and unconfident boy. I have to take more time to shape him out, be a brave and responsible boy.

Last Wednesday until today is the 6th day, I just cannot keep on drowning like that…I will die sooner or later.

I have to think what am I going to do.

Like Lionel said, “Too Yi Peng, these few days I recalled back you are such a great achiever during your schooling time. Please get up. This is your stage! Your ShowTime is NOW!”

THIS IS MY STAGE, I DO NOT ALLOW ANYONE JEOPARDISED MY LIFE STAGE!

AND I AM ON AIR NOW!