I received his SMS this morning as early as 3:45am. It was so happened that I had a stomachache and I have to wake up and go to the toilet. Frankly, the past whole week, I did not even have a good sleep at all….
“I m still at site working hehe tonight extreme energetic not feel sleepy at all work with my smoke pipe, which I realize this my life free n committed with work..satisfaction n I thing this is wat I want finally, with god always with me supporting me..ni separation doesn’t mean we ve to be enemy u know too long attaching I think is time to cool dn n ve both some dreams n freedom..kids growing up day by day, capitalizing getting heavy…
I will still commit to d responsibility of d family only I nd more concentration to wk one day I may join Taisei flying oversea project u n kids ve to get use where I m not around ni pls understand me don bush around thought affair issue…I m clean n kids n u future still my 1st priority if although we separated… tq…”
For this past whole week, I am not really in the conditions of working. I really wish my interior design project with Jessie and Yeap can quickly come in, thus I still can make my mind clear.
I am home writing blog, then I suddenly saw the children iPad lay on the bed, just take on and play on it. I incidentally opened the email tab, I found out that, under the sent column, there are 2 emails heading indicated is a love email written from my husband to the lady…Suddenly it disappeared as I was unable to retrieve it and read on. I think he must be suspect something, that he erased all the records of his email. I saw it, one of it even using the wording in the bible to quote it.
My Gosh!! Then, what is the sms he message me about?
A great liar, he had been cheated me for more than 5 1/2 years…
If there is really a God up there, please send your sign to support me…I really do not know how long it will take…It seems like every seconds, minutes, hours, days and nights, I am the one who are suffering? Should it be the way? It’s really unfair to me, and the children?
***** ***** *****
I had wrote an email replied to him.
Around 4:30pm, when I was taking my bath, I heard the door locks opened and he came back. I would not have any ideas if he had read that email.
He walked in, put down his bag, then he said he want to have a hair cut, and went out again. He looks tired, as he did not sleep at all last night, I can understand that.
I looked at my watch, 4:45pm. I did ironing for the kids school uniform and few of his pants and shirt.
Sharp 5:30pm, he came back while I had finished my ironing. I am ready to walked out and asked him, whether he would like to fetch Issac together from school?
He just shacked his head, and told me that, he cannot stand it, he felt sleepy. He’ll sleep after his bath.
Before I went out, I told him to sleep in the room instead, because after the children came back, I am afraid will disturb his sleep.
Today the children have the music class. After I fetched Issac, he was so happy when he saw his Daddy is back, he just rushed to the room, kissed and hugged his Dad. I told him that, Daddy is very tired, and unable to accompany him to the music class. Mummy is the one. He nodded his head, took the bath happily and we went out to fetch Annabelle and we went to the Musikgarten class together.
I was so tired. Really tiring…but thank God is that, they enjoyed the music class. Just then, till the parent time, I saw two of them ran towards me, to join them for the class. I saw Issac kept on looking out of the door, it seems like he is waiting for a miracle: his Daddy…
My heart feels so sorrow when I watched his face expressions.
In the car, I cannot helped myself, my tears falling down, and I told the children, Mummy’s eyes very pain.
Issac told Annabelle, “Belle, Daddy is back. You cannot be noisy because Daddy feeling tired ar…” Annabelle just told her brother, “OK, this is make Daddy feels better, right?”
Wordless, I do have a pair of caring kids…my tears can’t stop dropping down.
His daddy was sleeping, when we back. I just asked the children do not disturb their Daddy…
I really hope he can see his children, from my eyes…
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