Our Playground USJ1 25 Mar 2012

Both of us woke up early in the morning.

He told me he wanted to go to the church St. Ignatius Petaling Jaya around 10:30am. This is the first time he went back after 30 years according to him leaving the Catholic Church.

We had our usual breakfast with the kids at the Factory Food Court nearby our house. During the breakfast, he did not order the food for me, just for the kids.

He just asking something about the buying property can do the withdrawal from the EPF. I did ask him, why is there any interesting property that he looking at? Which area can be invest? He said, it is nothing, just seeing only.

“This thing previously if I bring up to you earlier on, you would never think and consider about it.”

“All these while, you are the kind of person do not want any commitment at all.” He just looked at me and said nothing.

We went to the playground that I went with the children yesterday. Both are so happy. There were no people there as usual, except 2 person. One is walking on the reflexology stone pave, and the other middle aged man is doing the Taichi.

He just walked towards the reflexology stone pave, took off his shoes and walked on it. I am the one who are playing with the kids.

I think Issac knew it, because he kept on asking me to snap photos of him while playing. Annabelle is playing the swings.

After a while, around 9:30am, he told the children went back to the house. Before leaving the playground, Issac was walking towards to the middle aged man, and the middle aged man looked at him and said, “Young boy, you are so lucky and blessed, because your Daddy is bringing you come to the playground.”

At that moment, it is really strikes my heart, thinking: is he listening to whatever that man told our son? I can feel my tears came out from my heart.

We packed a Roti Planta at the mamak stall then we went back home. He took his bath, then went out to Church. Before leaving, I requested a hug from him. he refused to do so…

The children and I just stayed at home playing Lego, then it was around 2:00pm when I wanted to bring them out for the KFC as lunch, the rain started down pour heavily. I just postponed a bit later, then he came back. Never said a word and talked to me, just bring all of us went to KFC.

After the meals, drove us back home. He just packed a few things and go off. Before leaving, he said,” Do you consider whatever I emailed to you?”

“ I just replied to you, didn’t I?”

“So, you just want me to reply to you in the email lah?”

“I do want you to reply me in the email or anything, but I just want to know why now? Earlier on, mentioned that wait for the children to grow up, but suddenly so rush for it?”

He just walked out, when I was asking him where is he going? he said, “Find a comfortable place for me to work lah, I’ll be back when I work till I tired.”

He really do not seeing into my eyes when we are talking. Very annoying looks.

For the first time, I felt so it is an unusual Sunday that normally that we had together with the children. I cried after he went out.

Annabelle and Issac were playing the Lego, they saw it. “Koko, mummy is crying and sad. We do together the high high cake for Mummy,ok? Then, she will feel better.”

She took her just completed Lego and gave it to me, “Mummy, are you feeling better now? ok?” She smiled at me. I looked at Issac, Issac just looked at me with a very quite face…

What a pair of wonderful children I had…