A Tiring Thursday…

For the whole day, I had been thinking and crying ever since I had sent the children go to school…

Thinking of his decision…

Thinking of our past…

Thinking of our children…

Thinking of our withering love…

Thinking of his new blossomed love with another woman…

I drove down to Kota Kemuning.

Have a heartfelt cries.

Have a quite moment to think what am I going to do next.

The past few weeks of new love for him, he is going to scarifies his own family for his so called true love.

Divorce…is a word I would not think about it all these while, especially with the 2 lovely kids. This is not the first time, but is the second time. I do not have a lot of 10 years. Our relationship from start till now, it had been together for almost 10 years…

I felt so confused. I think definitely divorce is the answer…just how? Peacefully or Dramatically? Some how or rather, I really feel and hope that it is not true. But, the fact is, he is as cold as ice and really do not like previously anymore.

I left Kota Kemuning around 4:30pm. My car radiator temperature shoot up, I stopped by a car workshop, the mechanics found out that one of the pipe is leaking. Not time to waste and repair, I just requested a bottle of water in order just in case, during the journey back to home, it would not spoilt and break down. Eventually, I reached home safely, managed to fetch 2 kids back home.

I am not a Christian, but I do believe in God or the Creator. For this past week, while I was facing my difficult emotional time, some how or rather, I knew there is someone up there watching over me, I do not know is who, but I feel blessed. I hope I can and able to walk over this calmly and wisely, as I knew the road ahead is not a smooth or easy path…