Three of Us…

Actually, yesterday was ‘considered a good day’ for me. I think and hope by the incidents happened between me and Issac, the ties between us can become a bit closer.

Issac actually had forgotten to bring back his water tumbler the day before, thus I got him to take another purple colour water tumbler spare one as I am using it to store the cold water in the fridge. Yesterday, he managed to find his own blue one, then he had threw the purple one in the school.

I told him, “Issac, please do not simply throw things such as the water tumbler, you have to ask Mummy first, because the water tumbler need money to buy,” Probably, at that point of time, I had been spoken too much, I had made him not happy and felt angry to me.

I was so angry, then I just drove home, and asked him to take a bath first, before we went to Teacher Yu Win’s class. He was crying all the way, crying heart out loud, and kept on calling his Daddy…

I took him out from the bathroom and covered with the towel. Changing his clothing, and asked him lay on the sofa.

I talked to him, “Issac, you are very scared and angry Mummy, is it?” He just nodded his head.

“Why? Is it because you scared Mummy will beat you, when your water tumbler get missing?” He nodded his head again.

“Issac, you know these few weeks, Mummy is a bit sad and not happy, is it?” He nodded his head and looked at me.

“I know you are sad in here, because Daddy seldom come back, is it?” I touched his chest and asked him. He nodded again.

“Mummy is feeling sad too, that is why sometimes Mummy feeling no good. But, Mummy is always here for you, if you want to talk to me or want to cry, ok? Now, most of the time, three of us, Issac, Annabelle and Mummy, we have to take care of ourselves, we have to learn for each other,ok?”

He looked at me, and said, “ Sorry, Mummy” and hugged me. Both of us hugged together and cried.

I feel so sorry for my son, he has to go thru this at his young age like this. I really wish and pray for our better future ahead, three of us…